Interests:well i absolutley LOVE to dance! it is my life.. this will be my 13th year this year! woohoo! I will finally be competiting next year. and i can not wait! but also very nervous! haha..other than that i like to hang out with friends,talk on the internet,play sports and be active! basically just bein me! =) Expertise:dance,and sports i guess..?? Occupation:Student Industry:Other
wow. so i havnt written in here for a long ass time. todays october 1st.. this year has gone by really fast. i cant belive christmas is almost here again.. homecoming is this weekend. im not that excited actually. i am but then again. i dont have a date. which i know going with riends is more fun. but i also dont have like anyone there that i would want to dance with. or would want to dance with me anyways.. soo i dont know. ill probably have a good time.. oh well.. i just wanna wear my dress and look pretty.
in other news. its been really hard for me to be myself lately.. i dont know if people can tell or not. but im trying. i just have something going on with my intermediate family. its really really hard to get through. for me anyways.. and when people ask me whats wrong it just makes it harder to try and hold it in.. see hiding emotions.. thats something i lack. when i try and hide them.. they come out more.. when i try to not cry. it makes it even harder not too.. i feel like ive been in this slum for weeks but its only been 4 days.. not knowing how things are really gunna turn out. i dont think this time its going to work. it might. but im just so angry with ---- .. its hard to forgive something like this. its hard just to get through it. i dont know. im getting a little bit better as the days go by. but i still think about it.. dance is the only thing that has taken my mind off of it. when im at dance. all my problems slip away for that little time. its amazing. and soo nice.. the only time where i dont have to sit and think about this. and think about everything elsse thats stressing me out.my friends too.. wow. i have some great friends. im really glad that you all have been there for me through this. i love you all.. you guys are the greatest......well. none of you care about this probably.. .. so im just gunna go.i just needed to get some things out.
sooo i thought i would write in here becoase. well. 1. m kind of upset.. and 2. i havnt written in here in forever.. its not like anybody reads it anyhow.. lol... well.. me and my mom went to the dance studio today and got my schedule for competition or whatever.. but the problem is.. theres no tap for my age division except this small group thing. and linda said that wouldnt be for me with my 1st year in comp. because there hiring a choreographer and hes teaching teh dance all in one day.. and well yea.. i understood where she was coming from.. but i really wanna tap. she said if anything i could go back to dawna's class. but i really dont want to go back. she doesnt challenge me enough. and well its ....dawna.. and i cant stand some people in teh class... not all of themm. basically the girl everyone cant stand int eh class. and u guys should know who im talking about....anyways. its kinda really bumming me out. so now im only in jazz and production. competition tap is what i was looking forward to most. becuase there dances were soo awesome and i loved them.. geeze... i cried a little bit even over it.. dance is a big part of my life. and ive really grown to like tap over the years.... oh well i guess theres nothing really i can do about it.. and at least im still in it i guess.. i dont know.. oh well.. im still away from dawna and her gay ass dances.. lol... thats all for now.. just wanted to vent a little bit.
